Dear Jennie........

I have started this letter to you so many times in my head.

I feel like I know you,

I check in with you every day.

I read your words, I cry with you, I shake my fist at God for the terrible injustice of it all.

I cannot imagine your pain my love. It is unimaginable, incomprehensible.

You are living through every parents worst fear.

There are not enough words, when I can't give you back the one thing that you want, And Jennie I wish I could, with all my heart. We all do.

We all want to put Matida Mae back in your arms.

Both you and your baby girl have touched my life and everyone else's that has read your story and is with you every step of the way.

And I think that is baby Tilda's legacy, and you are making sure you carry her legacy on.

I have hugged my children a little tighter, appreciated them a little more. Tried to be a bit more patient.

My little girl has been bringing me a book to read to her for the last week or so. She has lots of books, but it always the same one. She finds it wherever I put it.

She comes and sits up next to me and always goes to the last page first.

We call her Matilda Mae, Amy can't speak yet but she touches her hair and wings.

"This little fairy is called Matilda Mae,

And she's looking down on us all today.

She lives on a cloud, way up in the sky,

And watches us all as the day goes by."

Not quite an angel book, but I don't think we have one and this is the closest thing Amy could find!

They say time is a great healer.......

So, I hope and pray in time Jennie, your heart will heal, the hole will grow smaller and you will learn how to live again.

In time.....Give it time. Be gentle on yourself.

Sending you pink and purple balloons, many bubbles, and all my love

Clare xxxx

P.S I will never forget Matilda Mae

To Jennie at http://www.edspire.co.uk/